I like retrospections. Looking at the numbers it seems like I played a variety of good games, different games, I am fairly happy with my top 5 as well. But deep down I know something went wrong this year. I got into a world I wasn’t prepared for and it changed me in ways I am not sure I approve of. I will tell you more about it, in fact it will become evident quite quick, I assure you. But let’s start with the interesting bits and pieces first.

This year I won a Nintendo Switch. Me and my co-workers went to a conference in Sydney and we entered a draw for different sorts of stuff, like a rocket LEGO set and some headphones. But what I really really wanted was the Switch. I guess I wanted it so hard, that I used all of my luck for the next 5 years. I went home with a smile on my face and the excitement of a child that just got that present for Christmas. As a result some of the games on my list I bought for the Switch, like Lovers in Dangerous Spacetime and Night in the Woods. My problem in the beginning was that I couldn’t decide for which platform I should buy games now, what sales should I follow. I kind of stopped buying games for a while.

Because of that, I didn’t get to play GRIS as I was planning at the end of last year. I didn’t finish Banner Saga 2 as well. On another hand I played Stardew Valley again and sacrificed more than 20 hours to the god of pixel produce, because I discovered mods, which I consider a huge fail.

I got to play great multiplayer games with my husband, Overcooked and Lord of the Rings Lego. I started playing Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice that will surely show up next year as well, when I will finish it and probably will consider it as a top 5 game. And most of all, I got Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild as a present and started playing it. And without further ado, here is my statistic for this year:

Yes, this is what happened. This game ruined me. It turned me into a shell of a person, I could only eat, sleep and play. And what’s worse, I am just halfway though. I was afraid to even check how many hours I have put into it, but for the sake of the post I looked and it says 95 hours or more, so the estimation doesn’t look so grim, but certainly feels as if it took much more from me than just time.

Having said that, here is my top 5 most favourite games of this year:

  1. Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild

Yes, this is the best game I played all year. It has everything I wanted and lots of it. The freedom you get from playing it is amazing and overwhelming. The world is so beautiful, I can’t shut up about it. I annoy myself sometimes.

2. Hob

Before the above game came and took me away, my number one spot was reserved for Hob. If you played it you know it has the same feel, so it looks like I was preparing for Zelda for quite some time in the beginning of the year. I liked Hob so much, I joined the developers in Discord to tell them what a pleasure it was to play their game.

3. Q.U.B.E: Director’s Cut

In the post from last year I told myself I will play this game and I did. It exceeded my expectations, I didn’t expect it to end like it did. I kept being pulled to games that remind me of Portal, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. This one had an interesting story, good puzzles and it surprised me, I am happy.

4. Lord of the Rings Lego

My husband told me one evening, let’s try this LEGO game and if it is stupid, we won’t play it. What could go wrong, I said, two weeks from now we will probably still be playing it. And there we were. I am a hard core Lord of the rings fan and I laughed during all the ridiculous changes they made to the way some things happen. It helped a lot that the multiplayer was really good, the music and voices from the movies are all there and you get to run across Middle Earth. I ask for no more.

5. Overcooked

I have heard of those games, but I got to experience the first one this year. Warning, good time ahead! Well done team building games should be played at home, they help you learn things about your significant other. After some evenings we played, we got up and made some meals for the next day, and it felt great! The floor isn’t moving and not everything is on fire!

I will look back at this list years later regretting that I didn’t put Escape Goat 2 and Lovers in Dangerous Spacetime in there, but I rate this according to the way I feel right now. I just realized I didn’t play a single game from 2019 this year. Here is the full list:

1. Detention by RedCandleGames, released on 13 Jan, 2017

2. Mountain by David O’Reily, released 1 July, 2014

3. Escape Goat 2 by MagicalTimeBean, released on 25 Mar, 2014

4. Gonner by Art in Heart, released on 13 Oct, 2016

5. GNOG by KO_OP, released on 17 Jul, 2018

6. Hob by Runic Games, released on 27 Sep, 2017

7. The Navigator by Team Navigator, released on 3 Aug, 2018

8. Shelter by Might and Delight, released on 29 Aug, 2013

9. Q.U.B.E: Director’s Cut by Toxic Games, released on 21 May, 2014

10. Reus by Abbey Games, released on 17 May, 2013

11. Lord of the Rings Lego by Traveller’s Tales, released on 28 Nov, 2012

12. Night in the woods by Infinite Fall, released on 21 Feb, 2017

13. Lovers in Dangerous Spacetime by Asteroid Base, released on 10 Sep, 2015

14. Layers of Fear: Inheritance by Bloober Team SA, released on 3 Aug, 2016

15. Overcooked by Ghost Town Games Ltd., released on 4 Aug, 2016

16. Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild by Nintendo EPD, released on 3 March 2017

17. Banner Saga 2 by Stoic, released on 20 Apr, 2016

18. Stardew Valley by ConcernedApe, released 26 Feb, 2016

19. Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice by Ninja Theory, released on 8 Aug, 2017

Last year I played games about people and how they deal with loss and solitude. This year I didn’t even try. Maybe this is the reason why I am a bit disappointed of myself. Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild is amazing, but you can see I am rather thorn. I love games that I can finish in a week, or in a month in the worst case. I love story-rich works of art. Why is Zelda even on the list then? I got so immersed in it and there is so much you can do in that world. I proved to myself again that games like that can be a drug for me and I need to stay away from them. Lesson learned. I will stop when I finish it.

With this I set my goal for 2020. I intend to close all open intentions I had from previous years. I want to see what happens in The Banner Saga, I want to finish Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice, and if there is some place for more, we will see what will find its way to my heart.

I am a software engineer and I love what I do. I also like running, cooking, reading and video games, so I will be writing about those stuff!